Vacation

Well, if you can call it that. My husband will be on vacation next week, I swear if his boss bothers him at all I will go ape shit on the man. He's been working from home most of this week because his mother and her boyfriend are here from England visiting. Actually at the moment they are in Memphis and Nashville tomorrow, then back here Saturday. It was only fair for them to go do stuff since Leighton had to work. The kids are loving them to death though, I am so happy about that because I thought for sure the kids would be little monsters and not even be friendly with them. Not sure what all we will do next week, not much I suppose ... just shop?

I feel ugly. I really want to get a way out there hair cut, but I'm scared and my husband doesn't want me to get it done til May. I hate waiting. I will probably chicken out, I hope I don't. I NEED something different in my life.

Will I ever get over this?

"Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on" - Linkin Park

The answer is: NO

Design THIS

Ugh, bear with me while I try to make my blog not look so shitty. I'm not smart enough to do anything but use blogger's design editor. I used to be smart ... what happened? Oh right, kids and husbands and death and crazy people and apparently this fibro shit.

Shortest. Post. Ever.

Fibromyalgia

Wow, can I get a break? Nope. Now I've been diagnosed with fibromyalgia along with the high cholesterol. Lovely. At least it explains the weird memory loss I'm having, although I've had pregnancy brain since my first child this is way worse. So now I know it's nothing scary, just painful body aches mostly. I have muscle relaxers for it but I'm not so sure about them yet, I will give them a few days to see if I want to stay on them. My doc wants to change my zoloft as well to see if that helps (fibro goes hand in hand with depression sometimes), this makes me nervous but if it can help I'll do it.

I'm still sick, the kids are still snotty but seem to be getting over our 3rd sickness since January. I feel like mine started to go away but has now come back so it may take me longer to get over this. I go back next week for more blood tests, yay me. We are gonna take the kids to see a rocket and some airplanes tomorrow so that should be fun!

Fuck you snot.

I. Am. So. Sick. Of. Snot. SERIOUSLY. The kids and I have been sick since January. Three times so far. We get better then sick again. London seems to be the worst this time, the first and second time it was poor Logi. I could care less about me I just want them to feel better. I mean at least it's not puking (knock on wood) but I still hate seeing them like this.

My mother-in-law and her boyfriend are coming at the end of this month to visit for two weeks, I'm excited for the kids to meet her. I just hope we can all get better by then.